"Is This Joy?" in the Summerset Review

"Is This Joy?" in the Summerset Review

there's excitement inside me
a tuned-up car, detailed
hugging each curve to Hana
cocktails in cup holders
waterfalls & a peacock
what a beauty
a strong & pungent off-gassing
a bus ride with a kind driver
even the strange dog didn't bite me
lucky day going forward regularly
this glowing bus is gorgeous
no reports of break-ins
no litter at my feet
I must have kissed you
a hundred times tonight
a bird at the feeder
I couldn't help a little soft-shoe
isn't the spaghetti delicious
even the rain opened pink succulents
the road winds so nicely around the hillside
skin alive & receptive
wind & touch & 
spontaneous goosebumps
this feeling in your core
a murmuration of starlings
you're a great blue heron
on unseen currents
oh to be bird & kite & panther
it's not the heart but a sensation
sun-core radiating warmth
spill of warm tea on your lap
it's not love for another
but for self and other
bright auras overlapping
in imagination or confusion
a steel rod still glowing from fire
hot glass ballooning at the end of the straw
excitement & calmness of soul
lava glowing & inching forward
around stone & tree & me
sighing when it meets the sea

KING'S BOOKS READING IN TACOMA, May 25, 2017

 So delighted to read with Jeannine Hall Gailey!

So delighted to read with Jeannine Hall Gailey!

  Field Guide to the End of the World  by Jeannine Hall Gailey and  A Filament Burns in Blue Degrees  by Kendra Tanacea

Field Guide to the End of the World by Jeannine Hall Gailey and A Filament Burns in Blue Degrees by Kendra Tanacea

Poetry Reading with Jan Beatty and Poetry Flash

A night to remember. Thanks to poets Joyce Jenkins and Richard Silberg, editors of Poetry Flash magazine and co-hosts of the Poetry Flash reading series at Moe’s Books in Berkeley, where I read from A Filament Burns in Blue Degrees with the amazing Jan Beatty. Her book, Jackknife, is magnificent. And I will never forget the gorgeous introductions by Richard Silberg.

 Richard Silberg, Joyce Jenkins, Jan Beatty & Kendra Tanacea

Richard Silberg, Joyce Jenkins, Jan Beatty & Kendra Tanacea

Garrison Keillor reads "Making Risotto for Dinner When His Ex-Wife Calls" on the Writer's Almanac

Garrison Keillor reads "Making Risotto for Dinner When His Ex-Wife Calls" on the Writer's Almanac

Making Risotto for Dinner When His Ex-Wife Calls

by Kendra Tanacea

While I mince an onion, he talks with her,
planning their son’s bar mitzvah, sounding
so familiar, so nuts and bolts. Turning up the gas flame,
I sauté the onion translucent. Butter sizzles, foams,
as they go over the invitation list, names I’ve never heard.

Adding a cup of Arborio, I think of white rice
thrown high in the air by the fistful. I pour
two glasses of chardonnay, one for the risotto,
one for myself, sip, then gulp. Blend.

The band, flowers, menu?
Heady, I stare at the recipe to orient myself, to understand
what I am doing: Add broth, cup by cup, until absorbed.
Add Parmesan. Serve immediately.

The word immediately catches my eye,
but their conversation continues, then his son
gets on the line and hangs up on him,
as I stir and stir, holding the wooden spoon.

“Making Risotto for Dinner When His Ex-Wife Calls” by Kendra Tanacea from A Filament Burns in Blue Degrees. © Lost Horse Press, 2017. Reprinted with permission.  (buy now)

"When It Happened" in Juked

"When It Happened" in Juked

When It Happened

by Kendra Tanacea

 

When Dad came home from the hospital, Donna Summer,

on the radio. A blue robe. Welcome home! Detoxing, 

 

there were ghosts: his mother white-nightgowning toward him 

through the center of his bed. Back of his neck, railroad-stitched, 

 

just over the cervical spine. Christmastime? The Super-8’s 

flood light so bright, he’s squinting. Hold up the new robe!

 

Blondie was singing about hearts of glass, and either there were icicles

or it was hot and humid. A tropical dress on a heavy July night.

 

Sometimes I think it was January, his car skidding on black ice.

Other times I’m sure it’s July and summer vacation, tuning the radio

 

to catch a song and a breeze through the screen. Set the table, 

wash the dishes, just one long Formica day. 

 

He was there, then he was gone. He came back.

It was Christmas and we gave him a blue robe. To lounge,

 

to recover. Recover. But it was July in the heat of summer

when I was a nurse in South Pacific. That’s when he got sick. 

 

Or became sick. When he spent long nights in the basement, 

magnifying quartz, pyrite, slices of mica. The cellar:

 

the coolest place on those sleepless nights, radio crackling, 

the antennae unable to grab onto a station.

Garrison Keillor reads "Perennial" on the Writer's Almanac

Perennial

by Kendra Tanacea

The rhododendron in Monroe
         from the picture window of my childhood home,

that gave us, every year, its first bloom on the fourth
         of June. Lilacs every April,

a constant hedge of baby’s breath. These things
         still happen in my absence.

And, at the edge of the yard, where all my efforts cease,
         the wild tiger lilies are opening,

tangled in the forsythia,
         just where the woods begin.

“Perennial” by Kendra Tanacea from A Filament Burns in Blue Degrees. © Lost Horse Press, 2017. Reprinted with permission.  (buy now)

"Thanksgiving" in Barely South Review

"Thanksgiving" in Barely South Review

Thanksgiving

By Kendra L. Tanacea

Carving a turkey, basted by his ex-wife, around a table
in this fall night. Children, dog at hearth.

Alone in your flat, loneliness settles in the chest:
phlegm. Dark meat sitting in watery gravy.

You’re home, while the man you sleep with clears
his ex-wife’s plate. I mean, she’s there in his house,

the one you’ve been naked in, wandering the kitchen,
looking for a snack in the shadow of Mount Tam.

It’s a cold place. Even his dog barks when you kiss,
and you are what you are: a stranger in a family’s home.

You walked yourself stupid today, to the ocean and back,
hoping to lose yourself in the people carrying yams

and pecan pies from their cars to front doors. You want
to stop imagining the scene, the setting and clearing,

the dumb domesticity of it all, scraps to the dog,
playing Pictionary, renting a movie. You think,

this is what I was meant to be: a sorry animal
aggravating her own wound. This persistent cough:

jealousy. Every ugly thing gathered into a cornucopia
of grievances: Thanksgiving.

 

"In Flight" in The Coachella Review

"In Flight" in The Coachella Review

In Flight

BY KENDRA TANACEA

A dense cloud cover.
No horizon and a faulty altimeter.

No orientating moon.
Have you flown like this before?

Hoping the disconnected self can return
from a flat-line. Apply the defibrillator,

and the soul high in the corner
will merge back into its body.

A runway lined with white lights
and the magnetic pull of earth.

Like those who stepped out of the fuselage,
wandering lost in an endless cornfield.

They never thought they were in Iowa.
They thought: this is heaven.

"Memorial" in the Stickman Review

"Memorial" in the Stickman Review

Memorial

by Kendra L. Tanacea

     For My Grandfather

Every Sunday, church. In his gold shirt.
On Easter, in his black overcoat and buttonholed
carnation, he carved lamb from a spit in our yard.
Later, we danced in a tight circle. Opa! Papu.

When his daughter was born, he paid for the delivery
with an inlaid chest, fitting all those pieces together: 
the concerned doctor, chin in hand, the feverish child, 
the lantern’s honey-stained light.

On April Fools’ Day, his wife’s birthday, he carved
the skin off an orange in a continuous spiral, 
recomposed it into a perfect whole, placed it
in the wooden fruit bowl.

When she could no longer speak, he made her
an easy chair. And combed her gray hair
and built us a home with its bones
on the outside. All those years of scaffolding.

After thirty years of piecework, after arthritis
bowed his fingers, he carved a chair for the bishop
with a relief of St. George, riding a rearing horse,
spearing the open-mouthed dragon.

He carved at night. Steady hand, chisel,
curlicues of wood. Sawdust resting in the wrinkles
of his pants, on his white mustache, in the hollow
of his good ear. 

When he became ill, he sank into the love seat
by the plate-glass window. In silhouette, 
his Einstein hair, Philip of Macedon nose, 
and slight paunch that grew with cancer. 

That February before he died, he carved Lincoln
out of snow. Great man seated on his chair,
chiseled features. At dusk, he splashed it
with water and, overnight, it iced like marble.